Tuesday, 2 October 2012

The Clock In My Mind

Its Tuesday night and I am hovering over my Facebook/Outlook and what not just because I feel like talking to someone. Does that ever happen to you that you want something with so much desperation and all of a sudden you realize you just cannot have it? Something or someone you want so desperately and then you realize that this is not going to happen. Like realizing that your dead friend is never going to come back? Or you will not be able to experience the "first" of everything all your life? Its sad you know, how time vanishes so quickly and give us so little time to make the best out of the little moments that we just love to spend. I do not know why they go away so quickly. Does happiness has something to do with leaving one not getting enough of it?

I am not sure what I am writing right now because I feel like a Zombie yearning for the perfect happiness to come and last for eternity. Sometimes I cannot even write what I want to over here just because I know some people I know are reading this. But then sometimes, I just want to write and vent what's going on in my mind and heart deep inside. Why would someone not want you to go away but stay and then go away themselves? Why do people like to see people waiting for them and they do not want to be on the waiting end? Why sometimes people make things sound so easy however for the other one, it might take the life out of him?

That's because they do not care enough. And that's also because we do not care enough. I realized one thing after being friends with people from every mindset that everything vanishes after a while. Maybe it be love or the friendship-urge. It all has to evaporate in the gush of moist wind one day and then the equation stays unbalanced because one is tired of not being satisfied and other is tired of trying to satisfy other. And after all the crap, I learned that..