Tuesday, 2 October 2012

The Clock In My Mind

Its Tuesday night and I am hovering over my Facebook/Outlook and what not just because I feel like talking to someone. Does that ever happen to you that you want something with so much desperation and all of a sudden you realize you just cannot have it? Something or someone you want so desperately and then you realize that this is not going to happen. Like realizing that your dead friend is never going to come back? Or you will not be able to experience the "first" of everything all your life? Its sad you know, how time vanishes so quickly and give us so little time to make the best out of the little moments that we just love to spend. I do not know why they go away so quickly. Does happiness has something to do with leaving one not getting enough of it?

I am not sure what I am writing right now because I feel like a Zombie yearning for the perfect happiness to come and last for eternity. Sometimes I cannot even write what I want to over here just because I know some people I know are reading this. But then sometimes, I just want to write and vent what's going on in my mind and heart deep inside. Why would someone not want you to go away but stay and then go away themselves? Why do people like to see people waiting for them and they do not want to be on the waiting end? Why sometimes people make things sound so easy however for the other one, it might take the life out of him?

That's because they do not care enough. And that's also because we do not care enough. I realized one thing after being friends with people from every mindset that everything vanishes after a while. Maybe it be love or the friendship-urge. It all has to evaporate in the gush of moist wind one day and then the equation stays unbalanced because one is tired of not being satisfied and other is tired of trying to satisfy other. And after all the crap, I learned that..


12 comments:

  1. I Know How It Feels Like. When You Real Want To Have Something Suddenly It Disappears, Suddenly It Dissipates Into Thin Air. In Fact, I Have Been Yearning For A Nice Conversation With Someone And I Couldn't Find But Then Time Went By And Now Nothing Matters, Such A Sighable Moments Of Time.

    & That Last Pic Is Quite Accurate, If Only It Was That Simplified.

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    1. Yes. Time is what we do not have a control over and its is a shame that despite knowing it, we fail to make the best use of it.

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  2. After June we see you in October. You think its fair?

    Do what you want always. Who cares about others and what they think. You want to, do it. Right or wrong.

    Take care KN.

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    1. I swear, I tried to write so many times but laziness prevailed and I gave up on writing for a while.

      Yes, I am looking forward to do what I think is right. But the condition is that it has to be right too.

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  3. You have nice blog here... :)

    Visit my blog--> A Happier Life

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    1. Thanks for dropping by, Assm. :)

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  4. HappineSs is subjective,komal. Sometimes where more thaN one hearts are breaking, including ur own, u have to decide which heart is worth saving. How do u decide that when u have to select whose heart would make u less happy if not saved.

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    1. That was such an enlightening feedback. But sometimes, its that we know we want to save that one heart from hurting other than ours, but we fail to do it. And it hurts even more.

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  5. It's a pity to see very little of a writer whose pen do much of the talking!

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  6. KN,

    Remember that this is your space and you can write what you wish to, how you wish to, without any worry what will readers say or feel. Never in life feel that you have to please others, do what you feel is right as per your own conscience. You can not please everyone, hope you have read story of Old Man, His Grandson and Donkey. Happiness is there, it is only we need to see it and enjoy it. Think positive and act positive.

    Take care

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    1. Jack,

      Thank you for dropping by every time I write. I could not thank you last time so I am saying it now. And yes you are right, if we will struggle to please everyone around us, we would be just wasting our time cause that is humanly no possible. But then there are some people in our life that we want to please despite whatsoever, you know.

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